User blog:.vectorDestiny/demotion

So I am demoting myself as an admin slash chat mod on this wiki. The reason is quite and simple, Lapis was created as mostly of a safe haven for Helena and her friends during the horrible time that it was the time Arale and others were at top of the wiki adiminstration and made pretty much everyone uncomfortable. Lapis stayed this way of being a safe haven for pretty much it's entirety, even today people use this wikia to escape the questionable things Fantendo has.

During my argument with Helena on the voting blog, of which she was completely right, I came to the realization that I am being an intruder on this safe haven. That I am one of the questionable things Fantendo has. But now, it is time to me to take my leave of this wiki, because I am no longer a refugee from the hellstorm that is Fantendo sometimes, I am part of the hellstorm.

I apologize for my behavior, knowing that this simple apology won't solve all of my issues that I have with everyone that utilizes this wiki and is part of the Chatzy group. Perhaps, I am too unstable and I hurt people unintentionally, I let my own egoism take over me and innocent people get caught in the crossfire. In no way I am innocent, I am the first and only culprit of the actions I have done and I won't pledge a non guilty verdict for this case.

But honestly, I don't know what else I can do at this moment. I don't want to annoy any of the involved in the incident, knowing that they have quite a good reason to not wanting to talk with me. For now, this is all I can do. This message is in no way trying to acquire pity, as I shouldn't be seen as anything else than an unstable person, possibly a sociopath.

Will I return to where I once was? Possibly not. How can I guarantee that I won't be able to stop this from happening again? I can't. The best course of action is distancing myself so that I can stop being a burden to people.

I am sorry, is what I am saying now. You suck, is what I probably going to be saying tomorrow. Someone like this shouldn't be around other people, lashing out recklessly causing them a lot of harm.

I thank you for reading what I have said.

If a replacement is needed for my position, I would suggest Pyro or Liam as possible replacements for my position.